Two days back while running I felt a funny ache in my left knee, I remember it faintly from a few times in the past decade. It is the pain I get when my left knee cap twists. I regretted running almost instantly. Yesterday being a Sunday, I thought I’d skip running since my knee isn’t very well and the last time I went to see the Orthopaedic he suggested I do VMO muscle strengthening exercise since that muscle is causing all this drama. And so I did, wearing a knee cap felt like a cute hug to my knee so I kept wearing it the entire day, I slept with the hope that I’ll wake up pain-free ready to run.
To my surprise, I have a hard time even walking today and all of this pain has made me realise that I have a weak knee and I may not be able to run, ever. I am pissed, very pissed. I am 24, this isn’t supposed to happen right now, I want to run. Running is the only thing I have been doing since I was a kid, I love challenging myself to higher speeds, longer time and a dripping wet t-shirt. The doctor has asked me to get some tests done but I am unable to do that because the situation of Coronavirus is terrible in Delhi and going to a hospital is almost like inviting COVID-19.
I have been running for almost two months now and I have a brilliant stamina and endurance, how am I supposed to just sit back? Let my stamina crash? Not run 5kms everyday? My entire day revolved around running and now I am sitting with a knee cap, looking at pictures of people running. I miss it, the feeling like my face is on fire and just being so exhausted. I miss being exhausted, exhausted to the point that I go in coma as soon as I hit the pillow. What about my June 100K Challenge now?
What if I am unable to run, ever? This is the worst, 2020 is the worst!
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